This is the 40th month blog!!
We barely made it through January when we received the news that we were given (told) the 'longest waiting' "award". Oh what a rush of emotions that was. We immediately put together our strollers , car seats, (had to buy another one because of the expiration date coming close!) We ordered our main crib, which we are so in love with and we packed even more clothing! We are overly ready and packed - yet again! Those weeks were VERY long and very stressful and very much full of anxiety. Glad we can resume the zombie like state of - waiting - and then all the rush comes back and it goes away and comes back and goeeeeeeeees awayyyyyyyyy and...
Introducing...
...the newest of Olympic Sports *Waiting for the adoption*
Featuring:
- Dynamic foot work as you try and not trip while you run to the phone, just to find your Aunt Gertrude on the other line who then asks if you "Are still waiting honey" for the 10000001 time.
-Next, working your brain as you keep a mental list of all strangers who you have met over the journey and dodging them in the supermarket. *runs to aisle 10, hides behind the cereal boxes*, *Does fancy footwork and goes back to the produce aisle for the cucumbers*, *Runs at high speeds past the meat department to skip the aisle of the dreaded friendly stranger*, *Slides into aisle 2, sees the stranger!! Panic! *turns and faces the shelving, realizing it is the baby aisle and you are staring at diapers*. Stranger notices you "Oh my goodness, is that YOU....Did You Get The Baby!!!!!! OMG OMG!. *Waits a minute as they calm down* "Nooo...I was just...shopping...for...my nephew, yes yes, nephew!" *Waits for her to buy the story* "Ohhh baby, I am so..sorry...why...how...there are so many children without parents *nods along, knowing this story* ....and oh dear, how lucky they would be, to have you *Nods some more*....and did you hear about the baby on 1st street whose parents were [insert any news headline]....*nods along, possibly falling into sleep* ....well soon dear, soon, I am sure of it!" *smiles and nods, agreeing "Yes yes, soon". *Waits for her to leave the aisle, finds an empty space and cries*
-Next event takes place daily before bed. The scene is quiet, adoption Olympians are in bed and a hush comes across the dark room. Eyes back and forth, closing, opening, repeat....closing, *think about something good, just think about something good* they repeat in their head. Quietly they whisper "Puppies...candy....love...babies....A D O P T I O N wait !!!!!!!
They are fighting a losing battle, yet they continue "NO NO...I will not think about the adoption and the wait!! They try again. "Rainy days, Pizza, Forests, Trees....family trees....A D O P T I O N wait!!" and suddenly even the champions fall...and it is there when the event ends as tears of sadness fall, it becomes an all night show of negative emotions.
Last event and perhaps the hardest, Opening up situations for the past month and fighting against yourself not to cry and shout, "Why NOT US" out the window!
So we wait...until we have waited so much that our gold medal can come home with us <3
On a happy note, Phil and I made a trip out to an adoption/foster support group! It was a bit of a ride, we are very thankful that one of our best friends came with us and we actually enjoyed it. We were able to hear other stories of the triad and enjoyed meeting all of the new members!
It was a hard month for us...which is why this blog is late, as March will be here in a few days! It wasn't pretty but we got through it!
So, there is no updates to report to you sadly, just still swimming!