Today we headed back to the agency for our final meeting and to have our adoption video filmed. For starters, this entire day was extremely emotional and draining. They tried their best to prepare us, they showed us other couples videos and profiles, which honestly was so needed. As reassuring as everything was, when it was time to be video taped, I froze up. I am someone who did theater most of my young life and being in front of the camera was comfortable to me but to know this video may be the deciding point, made me crumble even more (for those of you who have not adopted, the video is shown if the mother is stuck between two families, then it becomes the deciding point - no pressure!).
After a bit of talking to the cameraman about all the stress this is, he told us to just relax and talk a bit about us. Phil went first with introducing himself and then it was time for me and while I did get through the video - I became emotional and cried at the very end when I closed it out.
As emotional as that was, it hit me even more when we walked out to say goodbye to the staff...as this would be the last time we would see our social worker until the baby was here (if the baby is born within their distance)..but we are sure we will be back with the baby to see them again as they were part of this intricate story that is being written.
[Update: We were not happy with how we did on the video and chose not to place it on the website. We really missed some important information about ourselves and even though we prepared and wrote down some key points, we kicked ourselves after. Hopefully that video is never shown ;) ]
So back home we went...stopped at a farm for some corn *laughs* then ended up in a horrible rain storm but thankfully we arrived home in one piece - with corn!