The surreal presence of God was all around us and I felt Him say to me, "See how much I love you";
"Do you see this? Do you see what I have done? Ive been writing this story, you had no idea."
Ive been writing this story for years, since you both kids, Ive been writing this story."
I realized, how foolish I was. How my perspective was so skewed in my own pain that
what I saw as Him not loving me was in fact Him being the most loving He could've been.
It was like he was whispering to me in this moment "Ive been here this whole time and you didn't know but I've been here this whole time. I've been walking this thing with you and I was just saying "Trust me, Trust Me, Trust Me! I've got something good, something good up ahead"
It's a constant struggle to just sit in His sovereignty and when everything is falling apart in your mind, just to wait.